No regrets. I thought there might be, or some lingering sadness. No, it’s been nothing but increasing relief. The worries that I began with are going away, and they weren’t as important as I thought they were. I feel better without them so much that the concerns don’t matter anymore.
The practice makes removing other people easier. without the hesitations. I already know from experience that it’ll feel good to be relieved from them.
I associated with these people, mostly family members, while looking at life through a certain lens. These people weren’t good for me, but I settled. Now I know that I don’t have to settle and that there are more proper people out there for me.
I can work on myself now and bring in people that are more suitable for me, with the new lens.
The people I’ve released were at the time those who thought and felt different than I, so much so that it caused me confusion and pain. I’ve changed and am continuing to change, so now these people are even MORE different than me, so much so that I’m even more happy for the distance.
I am free to be me now. Somehow their presence in my life, or even in my head, had paralyzed so many things that I wasn’t even aware of at the time. I get things done more fluidly because I’m no longer worried about others who are rigidly critical will ever see it. Just as my blog is hidden from anyone who knows me, which helps in my free writing, so does the creative things I’ve been putting my mind and hands to lately. Everything is opening up to me.
I write this in encouragement for anyone who seeks to separate themselves from abusive people, even if they’re family members. If the circumstances are right for you to do this and your heart is crying for you to find some peace away from the constant barrage of soul injury, then you know deep within yourself if this is the right route for you.