I learned a new word today and, therefore, a deeper understanding of a concept:
Cardiognosis – heart-knower.
Strong’s 2589 kardiognṓstēs (from 2588 /kardía, “heart” and 1097ginōskō, “experientially know”) – properly, heart-knower. 2589 /kardiognṓstēs (“the heart-discerner”) is used only of God (Ac 1:24, 15:8) – the one who knows all the inner workings of every person’s heart, i.e. all their moral preferences (convictions). Accordingly, God hears “the prayer of our prayers” as He discerns our inner heart-preferences.
http://biblehub.com/discovery.htm
This is always what I need from God, what I’ve always relied on Him for since my turning to Him for all He gives when I was in my 30’s and at the end of myself.
This is what I’ve been searching for in the last year when I’ve sensed it was time for so much change – I need to get to know and honour my heart as something that God knows through and through. I can trust in that and, in prayer, ask that He slowly shows me more and more of who I truly am so that I can participate in accepting who I truly was when created and not the narrative of rejection and shame that was handed to me.
It’s taking the concept of the authentic self or inner child and God being the one who sees it clearly, more clearly than we can see it ourselves.
I feel like God has been protecting my heart for these last years and is now saying that the continued healing will be in my seeing a bit of it, too, and accepting all that I am there.
Thank you, God, for your life-giving Word!
Prairie Crossroads 
What a beautiful word and a beautiful thought. I love this line in particular “I need to get to know and honour my heart as something that God knows through and through. I can trust in that and, in prayer, ask that He slowly shows me more and more of who I truly am so that I can participate in accepting who I truly was when created and not the narrative of rejection and shame that was handed to me.”
And like you I’m finding that I am healed by God’s word. I don’t know how this happens but there is a healing balm in those words, they are living and life giving. This is one of many favorite scriptures Psalms 107:20 He sent out his word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction.
In my case the destruction, at least part of it is the lies I believed about being of no value and then having to earn acceptance by God. It amazes me that God is doing this work of reviving our lives and hope
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I was thinking the same thing about how the Bible’s words actually heal, just as it says it does.
I was also thinking that part of the healing will be that when I feel offended or hurt and feel my heart get panicky, it’s usually because I think there is a response I’m required to make right away. I’m learning that there isn’t one. The burdens of my heart are not all up to me to deal with, like I was left to do when a child. I don’t know how it’s going to work, but I think I need to show God the pain in my heart during those times and not feel like keeping it to myself like I need to “do” something about it. And then nothing gets done because I don’t know what to do with it, and the pain just sits there and fuses itself with the pain that’s already there. Then it just gets bigger and messier.
I just read through that psalm now. Thanks for the reference!
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This post is wonderful and this comment right here is just as good, if not better, than your excellent post! I needed to read this right now. Wow. I’m going to read it again.
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Your encouragement is such a wonderful thing, Linda Lee. I thank God for you and for the blessing you’ve been to me and this blog.
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Ooh, you just gave me happy tears.
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I’m starting to do what you said here myself but about panic attacks. I had one yesterday and I stopped in the middle of the hyperventilation and fear and told God this is beyond my ability to handle but you mean me good, help me with this angst. You know how much I can take…. I found relief in that prayer and calmed down it was victory! now I pray that I can make it a practice when the panic first sets in to bring all of that to God. He sees the source of my fear, and He is the remedy. Yes, we don’t have to handle any of this alone
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Wow, what an immediate example! I was just thinking that you’ve already, in that one time, just changed the way your brain is going to experience the next panic attack, if you ever have one again. So you know exactly what I was talking about!
That’s what I want to do – pull a switch on what my mind is used to doing with an experience of emotional pain or paralyzing anxiety and redirect it by giving it a different response. The trick, I think, is to have one’s wits about themselves in the moment enough to remember to it. But, I’m just thinking, even a delayed response is good because it’s still a new response, and it will come quicker the next time.
How encouraging that you’ve already tried it with success! I’m set now to use this new tool God has given us. Thanks for sharing that!
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Wow. Katie and Prairie Girl, I am in awe of what the Lord is doing in your hearts, and in my heart, too.
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I think it’s great that all of us have each other as we strive to tell our stories and to find healing. I am so far ahead of where I’d be if it weren’t for all our blogs. Thank you to you and everyone!
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I feel exactly the same way. Thank YOU for being here, for sharing your story and the healing and love you have found in Christ the Lord. Your words encourage me so much.
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Thank you, Linda, and I feel the same about your blog and comments. God bless you.
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Beautiful post. We can always hand it over to love.
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Thank you, Emerging. Love is healing and life-giving. I hope you have a wonderful day today!
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We know and God knows what’s in our hearts, I guess that’s why they say that only God can judge.
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I’m finding that as I go deeper into my healing journey, what I want and what God wants for me are beginning to align. Before, it was always what *I* wanted, and that was rarely what God wanted for me. But back then, I had no idea what He wanted for me. I thought he hated me, in fact. Oh, I was so wrong about that. Every day I pray that God shows me the path he wants me to take, and trust his judgment on these matters, because he knows so much better what is good for me, and will bring happiness–and reflect his glory at the same time.
Also, thank you for teaching me a new word!
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